Old Man

Why shouldn't I resume writing in this dusty old online journal? Today I was sitting at a bar and I couldn't help overhearing the loud obnoxious rant of an old man trying to renew his zest for life by hitting on a young sheela about half his age. He was using new age words and getting touchy feely and after a while it started to seem like he might actually be successful. Unfortunately, I was already late for a movie, but I kept wondering how my life might change as I get older. Will I be like this old man who lurks in corporate restaurant bars trying to get a taste of youth by crassly harassing young ladies in a bar? Most likely not as I've already chosen the path of an embittered crank. What does one look forward to in life? If this man took as much enjoyment in the "simple" things we take for granted in youth, what can one expect to look forward to in the later years? Is it better to live young or to think old? It certainly shouldn't be thought of as an ultimatum. Maybe by living like a young person through the eyes of an old person one can have success. Perhaps if you lack traditional wisdom in old age it is only because you aren't showcasing your abilities to the right age bracket. If people your age find you boorish and unoriginal maybe you need to seek out those with less experience who are more apt to find your banter to be a form of wisdom. Either way, what's the point of criticizing an old man who is just trying to have a good time on a Wednesday night? I suppose his loud outbursts disturbed me and thus I found a reason to feel that he needed to be judged if only in my own head. I felt that I was having a good time, but I wasn't getting to talk to some pretty girls like he was. Is it because he has money? Fame? Well-endowed? Most would suggest that I'm just not considering the fact that maybe he is a charming guy and beautiful women enjoy him whatever his age might be. That could be true, but I don't see why the standard thought should be that my first impression of someone be a positive one. Isn't it still judgement even when the thought is a positive one? Why should I always have to assume the best in people? Simply thinking about these things doesn't make me a bad person does it? I think it means that I am considering what it is to grow old and nothing more. If I happen to come to more negative conclusions than positive ones that only means that...well I suppose I'll let the pattern continue and someone can make those same assessments about me.